Today has been a down day for me. Actually, that last couple of days have been. I read a blog called China Adopt Talk where a "Rumor Queen" gives the latest China adoption news, rumors, and buzzes. Some days I can handle what she has to say and yesterday, I just couldn't take it. I just lost it. I haven't had a good cry about the whole adoption wait times, etc...in a while, so I suppose I was due if you will.
In blog she stated the same things we've been hearing. The wait times continue to increase, the review times are slowing down, BLAH BLAH BLAH. As I read the first couple of statements over and over again, the rest was just a blur. My stomach hurt, and I just felt sick inside. I am tired of hearing the same stuff. I just needed to hear something positive...see some breakthrough, just something~! But that was not the case. For the most part, I try to be very positive. I know that there are people in this world suffering so many unimaginable things. Please don't get me wrong, I am SO INCREDIBLY BLESSED. I know that. I feel it and I am so very thankful to the Lord who has blessed me. But, I suppose I am allowed to kick, scream, and throw a little fit to Him once in a while. I think he wants that from me. He can handle it, I know that. He wants us to "bring it" .
I emailed a sweet friend that God brought into my life. She and her family are also adopting from China. She knew just the right words to say to comfort me. Thank you- Heather G. I am so thankful to God. He knows our every need and he wants to meet those needs down to every last detail of our lives. She reminded me that God is a God of miracles and that All things are possible with Him, and we have to hold on to that, believe in that and STAND on the PROMISES that He's made to us.
So, with that being said, I've taken a DEEP breath and feel a lot better...today anyway! lol. Please pray for my family and me. We need it. Just the uncertainty of it all is so scary, but...
Even in the shadow of death we'll praise Him
Even in the Valley, we'll say
Holy, our God...you are worthy of all our praise!!!
Give Thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever! Psalm 136:1
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